30
Jan
So the last couple of weeks have been less than stellar. As you know by my last post I was let go from my job. Dealing with that and all it brings has been quite an ordeal. The emotions are nothing new but dealing with them is always a draining task. From feeling worthless to fear I won’t be able to put food on the table they have run the gambit.
Now dropped in to the middle of this is a realization that I had given up on a lot. A slow rotting surrender. I had become complacent and everyone around me has suffered for it. This realization is not a bad thing. I was able to root out the rot and over the course of a few days regain some of my passion. While this is a good thing it also means that I have to deal with the reasons I let the rot take over.
When you add both, or rather all, of that together life gets kind of strange. So I have been on a roller coaster of emotion and trying to slow it all down. I think I have a handle on things now. I have done all the stuff I dreaded doing: filed for unemployment, applied for food stamps, updated LinkedIn, sent out some resumes, and so on.
I also decided to use the Oxford comma when I make lists. In the grand scheme of things that’s not that big of a deal but I wanted to mention it.
And though all of this my wonderful wife has been my anchor, my shelter. I couldn’t have made it through any of this without her. Thanks baby. I love you.
15
Jan
If you are my friend on FB you know I got fired on Wednesday. This is a situation that sucks. What I have noticed, tonight, is that everything that seemed important and/or fun is sort of just grey. I don’t like this. The last thing I need is for this to last. To put it in perspective: I am at a bar celebrating a friend’s birthday and posting this from my phone. But don’t cry for me Argentina, I shall be fine. I just need to get over the hump.
11
Jan
I have been thinking about a lot of things lately. One of them is why I don’t post more stuff here. I post links of FB so why don’t I write more articles here? This is easily answerable in a single word: overload. What I mean is that we, and by we I mean me, receive so much information constantly that taking the time to ponder anything is a rarity. With all of the information constantly delivered to us by every device around us, even screens in the elevator here at work, taking the time to sit and think is becoming more and more rare. This is a damn shame. So along with all the other things I will fail at this year I want to make a concerted effort to take the time to think about things. To reason some things out. To actually write about things that mean something to me.
Slowing down is never easy and usually by the time I am slowing down I need something like the damn TV to shut my brain off just so I can go to sleep. I think that getting back on my ADD meds will really help this. The meds haven’t been necessary for work, although it’s getting to that point again, but I do think they will help me with my other goals such as simplifying my life, which is still a work in progress. I am actually following through to completion these days without much of an effort. But the brain still works in overtime.
So as I try to take time for the things I want to do I also have to make sure to have time for the things I must do. This balance is something I have never been good at no matter what. I seem to do one or the other but have decided that it’s time to fix that little issue. This really isn’t a promise to post more here but rather that when I do it will be more of what it is. More thought put in to the writing, more logic applied, less ranting (not that a good rant isn’t cathartic or necessary once in a while) and in general hopefully easier to follow.
Have fun storming the castle…
10
Jan
Yeah I couldn’t come up with a catchier title so that’ll have to do for now.
So I had a little exchange with someone I have known for quite the long time and it didn’t go well. The guy is really quite out there and I have always known that but his, for lack of a better word, tolerance for opinions that differ from his has apparently found its limits. Mind you I wasn’t espousing anything crazy. In fact it was quite the opposite. I was mocking a website dedicated to chemtrails, the NWO, and air elementals (Sylphs). Yes you read that right: air elementals. Apparently I made the mistake of using the words “tin-foil hat” and that set old boy off. I tried to be cordial and non-confrontational but it was to no avail. I was unfriended (oh the horror) and told to “Fuck off”. Now I am not writing this post to bitch about the other person involved mostly because I am glad to rid of him and I’ll get to that in a minute. I am really writing this post because I am done with trying to reason with unreasonable people. No hard feelings but if you are a 9/11 truther, believe that the government is using commercial jets to spray the population with chemicals to help the NWO do population control, think that Zionists either control the world already or are trying to, that David Icke shouldn’t be locked up for his own good, believe that the federal reserve is part of a NWO plot, or hell believe that there’s a NWO to begin with and whole slew of other whacked out conspiracy theories then please don’t bring them up around me. I don’t want to lose any good friends over this but if you have allowed yourself to be deluded by the espousers of any of the above or anything resembling any one of them then you need clinical help. At some point I may expand this list to include folks who claim the Catholic church is the Whore of Babylon and other crazy religious beliefs but I think keeping it to politics is enough for now.
Yes I am being mildly offensive with saying that some people need clinical help but sometimes the truth is harsh. Plain and simple. I try to be a skeptic but I also try to be a logical and critical thinker. If you consider the odds of any given conspiracy theory being kept anything near secret then you really must suspend disbelief in order to believe in pretty much any of them. They fall so far out of the range of rational thought that it is just outrageous. Hell there are plenty of conspiracy theories that line up with my world view to a large degree but after you get past the first level they just become unreasonable and impossible to believe.
I have seen some folks I thought were intelligent people begin espousing some these theories recently and it has just made me sad. Now I am not asking you to change your beliefs. I respect your right to believe any insane thing you want to believe. But please don’t bring it up around me or try to prove any of these whacked out theories to me. After my little exchange on FB with the previously referenced old friend I have decided that my life will be much simpler if I just walk away at the first mention of any key buzzwords, for the record that includes Alex Jones and usually Michael Savage, and not bother trying to convince the folks drinking the kool-aid. I want to say I am sorry if this offends any of my friends but all I am asking you to do is keep the crazy to yourself.
So watch this and enjoy the rest of your day:
Maybe I should come up with an actual list of buzzwords and publish it here to help out other people…
