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“Some days I know that if I let my brain fully understand what my gut was propelling me into, it'd chuck itself out my ear.”

~Spider Jerusalem

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  Don't flatter yourself that friendship authorizes you to say disagreeable things to your intimates. The nearer you come into relation with a person, the more necessary do tact and courtesy become. Except in cases of necessity, which are rare, leave your friend to learn unpleasant things from his enemies; they are ready enough to tell them.

  Oliver Wendell Holmes

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So the last couple of weeks have been less than stellar. As you know by my last post I was let go from my job. Dealing with that and all it brings has been quite an ordeal. The emotions are nothing new but dealing with them is always a draining task. From feeling worthless to fear I won’t be able to put food on the table they have run the gambit.

Now dropped in to the middle of this is a realization that I had given up on a lot. A slow rotting surrender. I had become complacent and everyone around me has suffered for it. This realization is not a bad thing. I was able to root out the rot and over the course of a few days regain some of my passion. While this is a good thing it also means that I have to deal with the reasons I let the rot take over.

When you add both, or rather all, of that together life gets kind of strange. So I have been on a roller coaster of emotion and trying to slow it all down. I think I have a handle on things now.  I have done all the stuff I dreaded doing: filed for unemployment, applied for food stamps, updated LinkedIn, sent out some resumes, and so on.

I also decided to use the Oxford comma when I make lists. In the grand scheme of things that’s not that big of a deal but I wanted to mention it.

And though all of this my wonderful wife has been my anchor, my shelter. I couldn’t have made it through any of this without her. Thanks baby. I love you.

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